Sunday, December 4, 2016

Sweet girl is two months old!

What a wonderful 2 months it has been with this little girl.! Bowen adores her....everywhere we go he tells people about his new little sister. She's such a good baby! Everyone has adjusted to being home and having a little routine. I can't imagine my life without her. I feel like the weeks are going by so quickly, but at the same time since she is our last baby I also know I am savoring every little moment that I have with her. 

Bristol is:

πŸŽ€ still wearing mostly Newborn clothes..some 0-3 months but they are still big 
πŸŽ€ about halfway through the month we moved up to size 1 diapers 
πŸŽ€ she sleeps so good, like 8 hours ! 
πŸŽ€ she celebrated her big brothers birthday with us 
πŸŽ€ Had her first Halloween 
πŸŽ€ still exclusively breastfeed 
πŸŽ€ starting to find her little voice 
πŸŽ€ not enjoying tummy time ! 
πŸŽ€ still sleeping in her Rock n play in Mommy and Daddy's room 
πŸŽ€ being swaddled is a must if we want her to sleep for any length of time 
πŸŽ€ LOVES her big brother 
πŸŽ€ starting to focus her eye a little more each day 
πŸŽ€mommy rocks her to sleep every night 
πŸŽ€ weighing in at 9 lbs 9 oz 

What a beautiful blessing she is..! Her little personality shows through more and more each day. 

Bristol is ONE month old!

Bristol Rae is 1 month old !!

πŸŽ€She still wear newborn size diapers 
πŸŽ€ She is in newborn clothes still 
πŸŽ€Since coming home from the hospital She sleeps 7 hours in one stretch at night ! Then goes back to sleep for a 3-4 hour stretch (mommy is knocking on wood as we speak that this pattern lasts πŸ˜‹)
πŸŽ€She likes to be swaddled at night πŸ’€
πŸŽ€She has only had mommas milk ! I pump sometimes so she can have an occasional bottle πŸ’ͺ🏻
πŸŽ€She LOVES baths
πŸŽ€She LOVES to be held during the day
πŸŽ€She sleeps so good at night in her rock n play 
πŸŽ€She is 100% a paci baby 
πŸŽ€ She recognizes voices 
πŸŽ€She went on her first trip to the lake on October 6th 
πŸŽ€ At her one month appointment she weighed 8lbs 1oz 

Mommy, daddy and big brother think she is just perfect ! πŸ‘ΌπŸΌwe are enjoying all of her snuggles ( & mommy get A LOT because being held all day is what she really loves ) 

Time flies when you are having fun.! 

Saturday, December 3, 2016

Welcome to the World Bristol Rae..!

Casey and I had made the decision pretty early in my pregnancy that I would have a repeat C-Section with Bristol. Part of me wanted to experience labor but the other part wanted to be safe for the baby so we went with the c-section. My doctor let me pick the date...anytime from 39 to 40 weeks! Without hesitation the earliest date available was September 16, 2016 so that was going to be Bristol's birthday :)

We had to be at the hospital at 5 am for my surgery that was scheduled for 7:15 A.M so Bowen spent the night with his MeMe and PawPaw so that he wouldn't have to be up so early! The night before after we got Bowen situated Case and I came home to make sure our bags were packed and get some sleep! Yeah right .... who actually gets any sleep when you are about to bring a child into this world?! I did take a long bath and get a foot massage :) but my mind was going crazy...

What would my baby look like?
Will she be totally healthy?
Will she be big or small ?
How bad am I going to hurt after?
Will Bowen be excited?
Am I going to be able to breastfeed?
And the list goes on and on.......

I might have slept 3 hours but that is okay I knew my adrenaline would get me through the day! I am so NOT a morning person but when my alarm went off I was up and in the bath in a split second. I could not wait to get to the hospital and get to meet my baby girl.....but first I had to have full hair and make up :) lol

As Casey and I were about to walk out of the door at our house I think the reality set in that in just a few days we would be bringing a new baby home and into our lives forever. Bowen was not going to be our only child anymore. We were going to experience that love we have for him all over again. Our lives as we knew it would be forever changed, but in the best way! With eyes full of tears we hugged and were just so proud of our journey. From high school sweethearts to married with 2 perfect kiddos....God is so good.

We got to the hospital without any issues. There was a smile on my face that was not going anywhere. We got into Pre-Op and had an amazing nurse. She was very friendly, answered any question we had and made me feel relaxed and at ease. Nurses really do make all the difference. She was basically done with her part at about 6:50 so we were just waiting on my doctor and the Operating Room to be ready for me. The plan was for my parents to get there with Bowen around 6:30 so I could see him before surgery. I really wanted a hug and kiss from him before he became a big brother. But unfortunatley there was a bad wreck and horrible traffic on the freeway so they didn't get there in time before I had to be in the OR. This emotional and hormonal momma lost it for a couple of minutes. I just wanted everything to go the way I planned it in my head. It was in that moment that I was so thankful for Casey. He's the one that can calm me down and make me feel 100% better.

Casey had to wait outside while I got my epidural and spinal block. There is something about the bright lights and coldness in the operating's very surreal. My anesthesiologist was amazing! She let me know what was happening and what to expect every step of the way. I was laying on the table, my body going numb from right below my breasts and shaking like crazy because I was freezing when my Doctor came in the room ready to get started. I remember them poking me with a needle and asking if I could feel it. Several times I could feel it so they had to up the meds to make me completely numb. Casey was sitting right at my face when the procedure started. They announced the time they started and then we were just was only a few minutes but it seemed like an eternity. The sweet anesthesiologist told Casey that if we wanted to take pictures she would yell SCORE when they were taking Bristol out and he could stand up and take pictures. Casey's face turned completely white like he had seen a ghost. He did not want to look over the curtain. She could tell that I really wanted those pictures but Casey wasn't comfortable with that idea himself so she offered to take the pics for us. What a life saver! Seconds later we heard SCORE! She was here....with a good set of lungs! 7:30 A.M. exactly! Casey walked over to where they weighed her  and did her vitals and got some pictures of her. The baby nurses called out 6 pounds 7 ounces!! I remember way she must have meant 7 pounds 6 ounces..right ?!? Nope the nurse was correct, we had a tiny little girl :) Minutes later he walked over to me holding our sweet baby girl. They immediately let me get some skin to skin time with her while I was still getting operated on. Case and I shared a few moments of being extremely thankful together. Tears were shed by us both.... After waiting so long for her & then a scare that something might be wrong with her we were just so thrilled that Bristol was here in our arms healthy and happy.

 Casey was able to take her out to the waiting room to see our family while I got my tubes tied.

Our family was over the moon just as we were! Big Brother Bowen was so excited to see his baby sister and everyone could not wait to get some time with her.

We had a wonderful experience at The Woman's Hospital. I loved going to recovery with just Case and Bristol for about an hour. It gave me time to bond with her and the recovery nurse helped me with nursing for the first time. I didn't know anything about nursing but several nurses that came through as I was feeding commented on how awesome it was that she latched so well and was nursing at just an hour old. She nursed for about 30 minutes in football hold position! She is our little breastfeeding champ.

Once my post partum room was ready we headed that way to meet all of our family! We are so grateful for so many people that love us and love our babies. Bristol was passed around and loved on all day long. It was a magical day..!

Bowen seemed to adjust well for the first day.

As for momma and daddy....that night was rough lol. Miss priss wouldn't sleep if we put her down ( & I couldn't get out of bed yet) So needless to say Mommy and Daddy literally did not sleep any that night. I was so uncomfortable and ready to get out of the bed that right after the tech came in to take my catheter out I made Casey come help me out of bed for the 1st time......The nurse caught me and was shocked that I was out of bed. I begged for a shower but I had to wait until they removed my epidural :( So sponge bath it was!

I sent Case home to get some sleep so that he would be able to help me during the night that night. Daddy's must require more sleep lol

We have the most beautiful little girl and we are so thankful God chose us to be here parents! We are looking forward to what the future holds for us as a family of four.

Bristol Rae Nowetner
Born September 16, 2016 @ 7:30 A.M.
6 lbs. 7oz.
19.25 inches long

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Our Rainbow Baby ..!

It's been a while since I have written in here but it is time to update..!

2015 was a tough year for me. After the miscarriage in February 2015 I was in a complete funk. I knew there was a reason it happened and I trusted that God had a plan for my family but it still didn't make it any easier every time I saw a new pregnancy announcement on Facebook. We tried and tried for months and it always ended with me taking a million pregnancy tests ALL with a big fat negative! I would get so frustrated with my body....why was it failing me? Questions filled my head constantly and fertility meds made me feel totally crazy! Finally around late October/Early November I went to Casey and told him that I couldn't put myself through this anymore. It was about to be the Holidays and I just wanted to not be on fertility meds and have it consuming my life. I desperately wanted to just enjoy my family, Christmas and our Disney vacation.

So we did just that! No Doctors, No medicine, & No baby talk (for the most part)!

New Years Eve my mom, Ashley and all our boys were over at my house to bring in the new year while all the men were duck hunting and as us girl were talking about what the new year might hold for each of us Ashley said "I bet 2016 will be the year we get Baby Nowetner #2"! I vividly remember basically glaring over at her (because remember I was trying so hard to not think about a baby) and I immediately snapped at her "NO ASHLEY! I haven't even been back to the doctor to see where we go from here and I don't have any fertility meds so no this isn't the year!" As you can tell I was defensive, it was the only way I knew how to protect myself from the heartbreak.

2016 came I just wasn't feeling right. All of a sudden I was extremely tired and had zero energy. My mom has a thyroid problem and I watched her struggle with having no energy and being crazy tired all the time. I also know that things like that can be hereditary so after a week of feeling like crap I told Casey that something was wrong and I needed to get to the doctor and have come blood work done to check my thyroid level. He was very supportive and agreed that going to the doctor would be a good idea. That night I sent him to Walgreens to get a pregnancy test but not because I thought I was pregnant was only because I knew the next day at the doctor they would ask me if I could be pregnant and suggest I take a pregnancy test in office to be sure & from all of my experience its so much easier to deal with your emotions in your own house instead of fighting back the tears sitting in the doctors office! Anyways, I could just take my negative test in with me and let them know I had taken a test the night before and it was negative. Easy enough.

We made no big deal about me taking a test. Casey got home from Walgreens and it was late so he went straight to bed and I laid on the couch sleeping on and off. About midnight I decided to take the test and get to bed. Annoyed and angry I took the test sat it on the counter....waited for just a few seconds and I thought I saw 2 lines....WAIT WHAT ?! TWO LINES means I'm PREGNANT ! My heart sank, I wiped my eyes to be sure I was seeing this correctly. I took a picture and sent it to Ashley to get a second opinion. I ran into our bedroom woke Casey up as I was crying hysterically. He always wakes up in outer space so it took him a couple minutes to realize what in the world was going on. After seeing the test a huge smile came over his face and then he asked me "Are you crying because you are happy or sad?"

& It was in that moment on January 10th that it got real....I was extremely happy but I was also really scared! I had prayed and prayed for this baby and I was so afraid of losing it. I couldn't handle another miscarriage.

This was not only my Rainbow baby but also my little miracle baby. No meds, No Doctors & No planning .....There was a 1 in a million shot at me getting pregnant without fertility meds and it happened. The only was to explain that happening is.... GOD !

My Pregnancy:

My pregnancy was a pretty rough one. Starting from when I was only about 4 1/2 weeks along I was sick, and not just like throw up once and then you are fine. It was an all day thing. So much so that Bowen at 3 years old would come running to the bathroom with me and rub my back while telling me that "It's OK Momma, the baby is growing". Casey was so good to me. He would bring me whatever I needed, laugh at me when I peed my pants from throwing up so hard and help me with Bowen. I had always heard that "morning sickness" was a good sign for a healthy baby!!! So I held on to that hope. I had my first doctors appointment mid January and via Ultrasound we didn't see the baby. Which worried me to death !!! I just wanted to see my baby with a strong heartbeat.

Feb 17th at almost 8 weeks I went back for another ultrasound and baby was there!!!! What a great moment !

I continued to be sick all the time but otherwise my HCG levels were good. I had to take progesterone pills because it was on the low side. I really wanted to know the gender so I opted to do the blood work that tests for gender along with many other genetic issues.  I had my blood drawn at 11 weeks and after waiting 10 days it came back inconclusive. The doctor was a little concerned but wanted me to have another blood draw to see if it was a fluke. At almost 13 weeks I had another blood draw....waited 10 days and it came back inconclusive AGAIN! When the doctor called I could tell there was some level of worry in her voice. I asked her to be completely honest with me and tell me what "could be" the cause of this. She explained that these inconclusive results do not happen very often and that it could mean that the baby had a major chromosomal abnormality. She insisted that I get in immediately to the imaging center for an ultrasound and also get in to a specialist.

Of course, I panicked. Here I was 13 weeks pregnant and so attached to this baby already. Please God don't let there be something wrong with my baby. I called Casey at work and told him. He came home from work early to be with me. My mom and Ashley showed up to console me. I was a wreck. Being pregnant and having no clear answers is so scary. We all prayed and from there it was a waiting game until I got in to the specialist.

My Doctor was able to get me into the Imaging Center the next day and they did a very detailed ultrasound and when the Dr. S came in to talk with me he told me that he didn't see anything that was alarming to him. He said everything seemed on track but that if it would make me feel better then seeing the high risk specialist wasn't a bad idea.

Since the blood test didn't work and we had to wait a few weeks to get into the specialist so I decided to make an appointment with Baby Love Ultrasound at 16 weeks to determine the gender of our sweet baby!

April 7th- It was finally time to determine the gender....Case and I went to the appointment and almost immediately the tech said well it's a beautiful little girl :) We just wanted a healthy baby but having a baby girl to add to our awesome little boy was very exciting! We had a cute little gender reveal with our family the same evening! Bowen wanted a sister so bad and his wish was going to come true!!

Besides being sick for 7 months of my pregnancy it wasn't too bad if you say it fast.! Bristol was way more active than Bowen was in the womb. I enjoyed feeling her every movement. I had 2 appointments with the high risk doctor and both times he said everything looked very normal and all the measurements were in the range that they were supposed to be! What a huge relief!

Case and I decided that this would be our last baby so we really tried to slow down and enjoy every waddle, pregnancy craving & kick that this pregnancy brought us.

Can't wait to write her birth blog!